I can’t fall asleep. I don’t know why. Why do I have a weird feeling? Why am I thinking strange thoughts? It feels like shadows are circling around me trying to get into my head, but I don’t know why. My mind keeps wondering, going to places I don’t want it to go. My mind keeps thinking thoughts I don’t want it to think. Why do I keep imagining the strangest happenings, the darkest days? Am I sensing danger, or is it just my mind playing tricks? I don’t know.
Sleeplessness is tough. Sometimes your body feels sleepy, but no matter how hard you try your mind just cannot fall asleep. Sometimes you just don’t feel sleepy at all. Sometimes it’s because of something that is troubling you deep in your heart, and you know what it is; but sometimes you just have absolutely no clue! Sometimes, just for no reason at all you simply cannot fall asleep. For me, today was one of those days.
Why can’t I fall asleep tonight? I try to think, I try to remember, but nothing comes to mind. There was absolutely no reason! Then I think; what can I do to put myself to sleep? Should I read a book? Should I write something? I don’t know. I wonder again, if I simply can’t sleep what can I do to keep myself occupied? Should I call a friend? Should I watch a movie? Again, I don’t know. All I know is that even though I cannot fall asleep, I need sleep. I need my rest!
Have you ever had a sleepless night like this, feeling like a Dementor from Harry Potter was circling around you? What did you do? What helped you finally fall asleep? What about those random thoughts that troubled you not wanting you to relax, not wanting you to fall asleep? Those thoughts you thought was danger or a warning; how did you shut them down?
I could only think of one way to help myself. Like in the movie Peter Pan I thought of the saying "Think happy thoughts and they lift you to the air". I believe Dementors can be defeated with happiness. Even if we don’t know why we cannot fall asleep, I believe it has something to do with a bad feeling about something. A happy thought, a thought of comfort can help you chase away the Dementor.
As you think of happiness you are being relaxed. As you are being relaxed you begin to dose off. Your eyelids become heavy and your body slowly falls into the comfort of your bed as you enter the dream world with a happy thought. Little by little you start to fall asleep. Your body goes numb, your mind stops wondering, the troubled thoughts vanish away. You are finally relaxed. Without even knowing about it you are finally asleep. That’s when you open your eyes and realize its morning and the sun is up. That’s when you realize and thank God that you did fall asleep after all!